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Times of Change

New Years Eve was very windy and blustery here. It has been a windy and blustery several days actually, I like it. I always like wind, and at this time of imaginary calendar significance it emphasizes the feeling of a time of change. Not that my bad habits ever change. I have a pile of cards I wanted to write and send out for the Solstice, and I've only written one of them so far. Also I need to be more kind to people who remind me of my own faults. Or at least remind myself more often, honestly, that they annoy me because they point out my own flaws, more than the flaws themselves annoy me.

It is also a time of change for me because I'm pregnant. Something that was supposed to go in my Solstice cards, but I know my own track record for paper communication, and if I make everyone rely on that, they will never find out. I was a month (or a month and a half depending on which stupid counting convention you're using) pregnant at Bryan's wedding, but we weren't telling anyone then. Now I'm half way there, and due in mid May. So, no, I won't be in Pittsburgh for Carnival, since it is only a scant handful of weeks before I'm due.

This year I think my only resolution is to say 'no' more. I always think I can do so much more than I can realistically do. When an entire life or epic adventure can be lived in a two hour movie, or a six hour book, the time it takes to cook dinner or write and debug a program, begins to seem utterly ridiculous. But ridiculous or unfortunate as it is, the time it takes to do something right is the time that it takes, and excessive optimism just messes up my scheduling, and increases my guilt level when everything doesn't get done. Although I did make it through 33,000 of 50,000 NaNoWriMo words, much more than I thought I would get, but there were a lot of other things in November that didn't get done as a result.


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Jan. 1st, 2006 09:03 pm (UTC)
congrats :)
are you/did you find out what you're having?
enjoy the free time now! you won't have any for the next 18 years :)
Jan. 3rd, 2006 05:45 pm (UTC)
I've only had one real ultrasound since I have a midwife rather than an OB, and while they think it's a girl, she kept tucking her feet up and wouldn't let them peek.
Jan. 1st, 2006 10:06 pm (UTC)

Derek and I wish you both the best of luck. :)
Jan. 3rd, 2006 05:46 pm (UTC)
Jan. 2nd, 2006 03:41 am (UTC)

When I'm back on the west coast, I'll need to stop by with craving foods or whatnot.
Jan. 3rd, 2006 05:47 pm (UTC)
Got any guaranteed parasite and nematode free sushi? That craving doesn't have anything to do with pregnancy. :) And since you don't eat fish, I'm guessing the answer is NO. :) But we love to see you.
Jan. 2nd, 2006 04:23 am (UTC)

This year I think my only resolution is to say 'no' more.

I think you may have a lot of that coming in a couple of years. :)
Jan. 3rd, 2006 05:48 pm (UTC)
Thanks! You make me laugh. :-)
Jan. 2nd, 2006 06:14 pm (UTC)
Yay, May! There are lots of good birthdays in May :)
Jan. 2nd, 2006 06:27 pm (UTC)
Jan. 3rd, 2006 05:48 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :-)
Jan. 3rd, 2006 06:47 pm (UTC)
That's wonderful!
Congratulations to both of you.
Jan. 4th, 2006 04:47 pm (UTC)

Kevin and I are so excited for you!
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